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I wanted
to “meditate” myself out of depression but could I even get up to take a bath
in good time? On bad days, I would be so far trapped into my own head and drive
myself into a comatose state. How then could I honestly try and convince myself
that I can get better on my own.
If you
feel like you can come out of your depression yourself, 9 times out of 10, it
might end up being the hardest thing you would put yourself through. Yes
everyone is different but I’m just speaking from experience - I’ve tried it. I
am already crazy stubborn (realised this when I refused to take painkillers (laughing
gas) at A&E once - who does that lol) and I've always liked to
think I can sort myself out without anyone telling me what to do. But even I
had to surrender (if I knew what was good for me). Surrender myself to
medication that I thought would turn me nuts and also to seeking help outside the
‘comfort’ of my house. It's kind of embarrassing that I need such. But I need
it.
At the end of the day, I know what I desire – long term emotional stability and I wanted to exhaust all kind of ‘remedies’ to get there. I also had to seek the correct help – not just a few “it’ll be ok’s’” everyday.
At the end of the day, I know what I desire – long term emotional stability and I wanted to exhaust all kind of ‘remedies’ to get there. I also had to seek the correct help – not just a few “it’ll be ok’s’” everyday.
If you
have a counselor or something similar, are you carrying out their suggestions?
– what would be the point if not? I didn’t at first because once I got home… bed.
But, again I had to keep it real. Do I want to get better? Or am I actually
comfortable doing nothing… day in day out.
You might have to combine
different types of help – find your unique 'prescription’ so to speak.
I made
this hard for myself from being so stubborn – refusing help for nearly a year
on top of already procrastinating on just about everything. Be honest with
yourself because pride only last so long. Do you need help?
"you can't heal what you refuse to confront."
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